| "I'm Still Fucking Here" | |
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| Single by Blackbear | |
| Working title: | ISFH-Bear 1.2 |
| Recorded: | May 2020 |
| Released: | December 31, 2020 |
| Format: | Digital |
| Length: | 2:10 |
| Writer: | Mat Musto |
| Label: | softcore |
"I'm Still Fucking Here" is a collaboration between Blackbear, Mike Shinoda, and Aaron Harmon released on December 31, 2020.
Background
Blackbear has previously worked with Linkin Park on 2017's "Sorry For Now" from One More Light and with Mike Shinoda on 2018's "About You" from Post Traumatic.
In May 2020, Blackbear posted an Instagram story where he tagged Mike Shinoda, saying he wanted to send Mike a new track to work on. Blackbear and Aaron Harmon (who also worked on "About You" and also "What The Words Meant") sent Mike a guitar hook and vocal to play around with. On May 11, 2020, Mike started streaming to show fans his work on the track.[1]
Mike had Blackbear call in via FaceTime to explain the track and his upcoming album before fans were able to watch Mike work on the track for several hours. When Mike finished his part of the track, he sent it back over to Blackbear and his team so that they could continue work on it.
Mike said he wasn't sure if the track was going to be released or not at first, but once he talked to Blackbear on FaceTime, Blackbear explained that he thinks it could be an intro or an outro to his upcoming album. He said, "I have a new album this summer. It's coming out in two parts. I'm trying to squeeze this in somewhere, either it's like the intro or the outro or something like that of the sorts. It's a two part album - it's called "Everything Means Nothing". I think it's twelve songs. The first seven or eight are coming out in the next several months, we don't have a date yet but it's in the next several months." However, the track ended up not being released on the album.
On December 31, 2020, Blackbear tweeted, "im still fucking here" which lead fans to speculate that the song was being released soon.[2] softcore, Blackbear's record label, teased an upcoming release with Mike and Blackbear via Instagram the same day.[3]. Mike then sent a message via Community to fans just before midnight EST saying, "HAPPY NEW YEAR / Earlier this year, I worked on a track for Blackbear in my Twitch live stream. In 20 minutes, Bear and I are gonna post the whole track on his Soundcloud; here's a preview."[4] Finally at midnight PST, Mike posted the track saying, "Happy 2021 from me, @iamblackbear, and @theultravisitor. New track: I'm Still Fucking Here."[5] The song was released as a part of softcore's "6 Feet Friday" series where they release a new song of Blackbear's every Friday.
On Instagram, Blackbear said, "im still fucking here. piss off 2020 ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ produced by @m_shinoda & @tthheeuullttrraavviissiittoorr written by blackbear, art by @gordyland"[6]
The song features an abrupt ending to it.
Versions
Note: Only the date of the very first release of each version is listed.
| Title | Album | Length | Recorded | Released | Notes |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| I'm Still Fucking Here | 2:10 | 2020 | December 31, 2020 |
Gallery
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Cover art by @gordyland
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Low quality promo image from social media
Personnel
- Mike Shinoda
- Blackbear
- Aaron Harmon
Lyrics
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Uh, I miss the way that forever used to look like
Get high, lay in bed, let the day fade away
You used to treat me like you really give a fuck, that was nice
I couldn't take it back if I wanted, I'm just saying
Miss the way that forever used to feel like
Wonder why I'm over here, wonder why I ran away
You used to treat me like you really give a fuck, that was nice
I wanna change the past, but you're never gonna stay
And you don't gotta cross that line
Your demons took 'em all like they mine, and it's clear
It's been one hell of a year, and I'm still fucking here
You're holding back your tears 'cause your lashes took forever
Can you teach me how to love and show me how to die?
Forever isn't real, forever is a lie
I'm still alive
I'm still fucking here
I'm still alive
And I'm still fucking here
I'm still here
If you need me, I'm still here
I'm still here (I'm still here)
Yeah
Yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah
I miss the way that forever used to look like
Get high, lay in bed, let the day fade away
You used to treat me like you really give a fuck, that was nice
I couldn't take it back if I wanted, I'm just saying
Miss the way that forever used to feel like
Wonder why I'm over here, wonder why I ran away
You used to treat me like you really give a fuck, that was nice
I wanna change the past, but you're never gonna stay (But you're never gonna stay)
(But you're never gonna stay, piss off)
But you're never gonna stay
It's been one hell of a year, and I'm still fucking here
You're holding back your tears 'cause your lashes took forever
Forever
External Links
- I'm Still Fucking Here (Official Audio): YouTube
References
- ↑ LPLive: Mike Shinoda x Blackbear Collaboration Coming Soon, May 12, 2020
- ↑ Twitter: Blackbear - "im still fucking here", December 31, 2020
- ↑ Instagram - softcorerec, December 31, 2020
- ↑ Community: Mike Shinoda, December 31, 2020
- ↑ Twitter: Mike Shinoda - "Happy 2021 from me, @iamblackbear, and @theultravisitor. New track: I'm Still Fucking Here", December 31, 2020
- ↑ Instagram: Blackbear - "im still fucking here", December 31, 2020